My Husband’s Long Journey With My Chronic Illness
My husband’s long journey with my chronic illness feels never ending to me.
So, I can’t even imagine how my husband feels.
This is the marriage neither one of us thought would be our world but it is.
I know my husband worries about me 24/7.
Sometimes at night I catch him putting his finger under me nose to see if I am breathing or he shakes me if I am gasping for air.
On these nights my husband reminds me of a mother constantly checking to make sure their new born is alright.
I have no doubt my chronic life threatening medical conditions have taken a toll on him.
I feel terrible for the stress, my lack of function and the medical bills I have brought into our family.
I realize it is not my fault and it is what is.
But, still I have a hole in my heart for the marriage that never was, what I might have been and what we would have been together.
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